There’s a day in your life when you just sit and think back everything, starting to live one day at a time because you don’t want to make the same mistakes whatever it takes, when you realise the man you want to be and what it takes to achieve it.
It’s a long and hard road, somedays are painful, some not, but the big deal is to find your way, be yourself and be ok with it.
Sometime when you feel you want to leave your spouse, the person you really want to leave is yourself.
For whatever we do even whatever we do not do prevents us from do the opposite. Acts demolish their alternatives, that is the paradox.
To find yourself
When you get to the edge of hurting everyone you love, everything you ever wanted you realise you are a fucked up person.
There’s no understandable reason to get away in the middle of your life because you need to find yourself, because until this day, you have no idea what really makes you happy, and it doesn’t mean that everything was wrong, shitty or bad, it just mean that you don’t know, and through all of this years, you start to think back, and realise that you have done the same shit over and over, hurting people who loves you because your are lost.
I feel like a child lost in the woods, just sitting in a tree crying because you don’t know where to go and doesn’t know what to do, but is time to man up and fight, because I don’t stand up, I will just die right where I am.
The only real thing that I want is to be happy and make you happy, know that you understand how much I love you and until the day i die i would do anything for you.
I’m doing this for me and for us, because the only way this could ever exist is if I get my shit together.
This is far from over, at least for me, will fight through this even if you are not there when I found my answers.
I love you with all my heart and always will, no matter what.